Mary E. Matthias © 2012
“Cancer is much like a tornado that slices through our lives. Without any warning signs or sirens going off, the diagnosis abruptly touches down and swoops you in a funnel cloud where you are caught spinning and spinning. The fear of death is surreal with scattered, frenzied thoughts flying through the air like broken pieces of our lives. In the aftermath you assess the damage; chemo brain, neuropathy, no hair, no eyelashes, no eyebrows, no ovaries, no uterus, no energy, no appetite, no life, no normalcy. BUT PRAISE BE TO GOD…I was saved.”

“What I soon realized is that all of life is a continuous process of living and learning, longing and losing, with loving and laughing filling the space in between. In my process of cancering, I have learned that it’s the little moments filling the spaces in between that are bigger than life. I have learned that I can “live” with cancer."

“As we danced, I reflected on the unconditional love of this man who loved me through cancer twice. He loved me when I was bald, sick and scared. Tears welled up in my eyes and a sob came to my throat as I realized that what we had have is a gift from God….we have an “agape love.”

"I have finally come to the realization that I have been frolicking all of my adult life.
I have danced, laughed, played. Joked, and celebrated. This summer I frolicked for 260 miles on the back of a Harley. What I have learned is that frolicking is not an activity but rather a state of mind. It is what enables us to celebrate life despite our limitations and adversities. It is what allows my soul the freedom to dance on the beach.”

“So instead of questioning why I am still alive, I simply embrace the mystery. It is humbling and it is a privilege to share my story of hope to all of those who are beginning their own journey.”

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